I lost my virginity last night. I'm a straight male in my early 30s, so it was about time. We had a good time. However, I didn't climax during sex, which is a result of years of death-grip masturbation. (Thanks for the warning: I'm sorry I didn't heed it.) She took it personally but seemed satisfied when I said it was only nerves.
I am left this morning with more trepidation about my relationship than I had going in. I don't see last night as some victory or a "bonding moment," and I am afraid that is a bad sign. I also find myself being critical of my partner's performance, which, as a virgin, I am not in a good position to judge. She has never been a particularly good kisser and her blowjob technique was less than spectacular. Although it was a pleasant experience, I feel like it lacked passion, which is probably normal for a first time, but I am concerned.
I feel like an asshole for even having these thoughts. Is there something wrong with me?
One Potential Asshole
There could be something wrong with you, and you could be an asshole. I can't rule either possibility out after reading one e-mail.
It's possible that your girlfriend is a bad kisser/blower. Just because you're a virgin doesn't mean you're going to automatically click with the first woman who volunteered to put your dick in her mouth. It's possible that, however much you like this girl, you're just not sexually and/or chemically compatible. But sex is a skill that takes practice to acquire. It may take some experimentation to discover what works for you.
And if you give her some time, you may find that she works for you.
If she didn't know you were a virgin, tell her. And tell her that it wasn't nerves that prevented you from getting off, but the unfamiliarity of the sensations and, perhaps, a masturbatory style that desensitized your dick. Tell her it might take you a little while to get there, but with her help and patience -- and mouth and pussy -- you're sure you can. And then try to relax, experiment and enjoy.
And no more death grip. When you masturbate, use your nondominant hand, a lighter grip, and perhaps a Fleshlight.
I'm herpes-free, but I found out today that my roommate has contracted it. He has a sore but won't see a doctor about it because he's embarrassed. We share the same bathroom, so I knew I would have to be diligent about that. But now I am freaking out: Not long after he shared this information, my 7-month-old puppy runs into his room and proceeds to cover my roommate's face in kisses. I've called the vet and my medical provider, and while they both agree that my pup cannot contract the STD, they cannot rule out the pup passing the infection on to me. Please advise.
Scared To Death
Lots of people self-diagnose themselves with herpes when all they have is an innocuous cut or sore near their mouth or genitals. People who are too embarrassed/ridiculous to go see their doctors are highly likely to arrive at a herpes misdiagnosis. So calm down.
Even if your roommate does have herpes, STD, you're not going to get it from sharing a toilet -- unless you and the roommate have invented a novel new way of taking a dump. And you're not going to get it from your dog. Your roommate shouldn't allow your dog to lick his open sores (who does he think he is? Job?), herpes-related or not, and if you're really freaking out about your affectionate new dog, well, you should refrain from kissing any animal that drinks out of toilets, licks its own ass and laps up vomit.
I have a new girlfriend. She likes me to eat her cream pie after we have sex. She does get off again and squirts most of the time when I do it. No one has ever asked me to do this before her. Is she crazy? Or am I for doing it?
Not A Cream Pie Lover Yet
Why does someone have to be crazy? A cream pie isn't my preferred post-orgasm snack -- I prefer a Creamsicle -- but if it turns your girlfriend on, and if doing this doesn't leave you curled up on the bathroom floor in the fetal position, then you're not crazy and neither is she. She's kinky, you're GGG and you're both enjoying kick-ass, boundary-pushing sex. Enjoy.
I'm a 28-year-old straight guy. I'm also 5 feet 6 and 124 pounds. I always feel like I'm a lost kid when I'm at a bar or club, with people my age or younger towering over me. So that, right away, is a confidence killer when trying to meet women. But here's the real kicker: I like tall women. In fact, I prefer somewhat butch women -- Hilary Swank in Boys Don't Cry, Geena Davis in A League of Their Own -- and this leads to the ancillary problem that many of the women I'm attracted to are lesbians and thus are not interested in me. But even the tall, butchy straight/bi girls tend to go for guys who are taller than them. Most women I talk to about why they fall for tall guys have a common theme: They are looking for someone who makes them feel secure.
That's what I want! Is it so damn wrong to want a woman to be protective of ME? I want to be held by a strong pair of lady arms! Why is my vanilla kink such an obstacle?
Below Their League
Most women prefer taller men -- not tall men, just men who are taller than they are. It's a sad, unavoidable fact, one you'll have to accept (just as I had to accept that most men prefer women). Not much else you can do about it.
I've got some space to kill, so here are a few Savage Love programming notes:
Ever wanted to be a porn star for a weekend but not for the rest of your life? Ever wanted to win large cash prizes? Go to thestranger.com/hump to learn more about HUMP!, my annual amateur-porn festival that's now in its sixth year. Hardcore, softcore, erotica, animation, robots, zombies, virgins, cream pies, lady arms -- everyone and everything is welcome at HUMP! The deadline for entry is Oct. 15. Go to the website for contest details, release forms and dates.
And finally: Khia's new album? My goodness.
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